irin

2005-10-28T23:40:00.000-07:00

im goin to blog in multiply..
so i can say wad i wan to say to individuals =)
wif lovezzzz ppl..
cya in my multiply..
http://irin2111.multiply.com/

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2005-10-13T21:11:00.000-07:00

been workin..n workin..n WORKIN..
i love work..
as in..
i love my colleagues..
i love workouts at sentosa..
i love my job(ohhhh..finally..)

people always judge..
we get comments lyk "wa..e lifeguards always sit there n do nth.."
but ppl forget tt doin nth is a torture too..
try sittin there LOOKin for lyk 8 hours while ppl swim?
under e sun..e rain..
i admit i gt a job ttz better paid den some others..
but we've gt certs..n certs r wadz tt impt isnt it?
if nt..y e *&^(^&*%^& u study?
most of us train durin lunch breaks to be better..
we rescued..
but some ppl dun c it..
we get ppl who cant realli swim.. n insist tt dey gt bronze..silver..gold..den end up strugglin..
FUCK THOSE CERTS..

when ppl die..
ppl ALWAYS ask.."wadz e lifeguard doin"
itz YOUR RESPONSIBILITY to take care of yrself..
bcoz u know BEST..whether u can swim OR NOT..
yes..we r paid..
n we did our job..becoz WE minimise e no. of ppl drownin every yr..
tell me..
y r there still robbers when they r SO MANY policemen ard?
itz e same thing rite?
haiz..nvm..

thanx to those hu tagged =)
love all of u lotz..
*hUgz*
sorry for e super late reply..
coz din wan to use e office com to visit my blog..

=)

2005-09-28T21:37:00.000-07:00

RETAIL THERAPY!!
it left me wif my hands full wif bagssss..
n pocket empty..
haaz..
but it makes me happy.. =)

bought 7 tops..1 tube..1 pair of slippers..
oPps
fell in love wif an oakley sunglass..
which cost lyk $231?
hey..look at it tt way... itz a form of "investment"
=P
wanted to buy a pair of charles n keith slippers..
but din haf my sizeeee =(
wanted to buy a top from future state..
but hmm..still thinkin abt it..

love sam =)
my soulmate =)
*hope ya lyk e jacket..*

had fun today =)

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2005-09-27T23:08:00.000-07:00

there mite b heartaches at e end of tis journey..
but e u-nv-noe-until u try..made me try..
he makes me smile..
he makes me laugh
he makes me happy..
he cheers me up on gloomy days
supports me when i had problems..
he encourages me on my failures..
he shares my lil successes..
loVezzzz
=)

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2005-09-27T22:41:00.000-07:00

meetin sam tml =)
retail therapy.. =P

oh ya...i was workin on..erm thurs?
there was tis guy..
he walked towards me..
"miss..u can swim ar?"
i was thinkin "wtf?"
itz such an insult can..
i mean..im nt a v gd swimmer..
i lag behind in terms of speed n stamina..
but tt DOES NT MEAN tt i DUNNO hw to swim..
nvm..
i replied "yes" (c..i cant b bothered to reply animore other den a one word ans..was hopin tt he wld realise tt hez askin stupid question)

he walked awy..
den walked back..
"miss ar.. r u a lifeguard"
dotz? im was in uniform..
yet another one word ans.."yes"

he walked awy den walk back AGAIN..
"miss ar.. so u will save those ppl if they drown izzit"
wa...IRRITATIN rite?
he asked if i can take a pic wif him..
i nv say no
surprisingly..some ppl wan pics for projects..
some..wans it for memories..
e i've-been-to-sentosa thingy.?
(one guy was tellin me..dun b surprise if u c it in our company magazine..i'll send one copy to u if it happens..haaz..quite cute..one of those v nice tourists)
back to TT guy..
he asked if i wanted e pic..
"gif me yr no. la den i can contact u"
NICE TRY..cliche n OLD..
"thanx..but no thx..u can kip it"

*hope guys realise tt "miss..u cant swim ar?"
is a bad pickup line..*
=P

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2005-09-27T22:13:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BDAE MUM =)
shes my pillar
e one i turn to..when im happy..or sad..
shes my role model..
my dearest..
i'll do anything to make her smile..
=D

took leave to play mahjong wif her..
bought her a lipstick..
treat her to dinner =)
-smilez-
we had mac ice cream..
simplicity brings abt happiness.. =)

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2005-09-27T22:06:00.000-07:00

hi all! =)
itz a happy wkkkk =D

fri-gatherin wif sec sch clssmates..
it was fun.. so glad to c u guys again =)
bbq at east coast..
i enjoyed e conversations..e drinkin session(next time we'll buy moreee ya)..
e "heart attacks".. e truth or dares.. =)
miss u all lotz =)
catch up more often ya..
mOmo..here we comeeee =)

i slept at 4 plus..n woke up at 5 plus..
FOR WORK..*&*^&^%
e atm machine was down..i had onli 10 cents wif me? pathetic..
i walked out..dunno where to go..
den.. one cabby uncle reversed..
i asked if he accept nets..
he said no..but asked me where im goin..
"sEntosa"
he gaf me a lift! =D
he sent me to a bus stop (4 stops awy frm harbourfront)
so nice of him!
we were listenin to "love me by collin raye"
when i commented tt it was a sad song..
it brings back memories..sad ones though..=(

he teared!
i was lyk freaked out la..
his gf passed awy 27 yrs ago..suffered frm cancer =(
his first love..n probably last?
u may find him stupid..
but i think hes sentimental..
abit over though..
sad story..
everytime he listen to e song..he'll tear..
haiz..
hes a super nice person la..
hw mani cab drivers will do tt?

=)

i took a bus into sentosa..
but blue line wasnt in operations..
rasa bus driver sent me to palawan..
=P

it was a happy start of e day..
sooo many kind souls =)
i tried v hard to kip my eyes open..
managed to survive! =)

SUNDAY
had my physical fitness test..
haaz =) everybody passed..
did circuit trainin..
wa..i think i nearly died..
hahaz..quite tough..
but im lovin ittttt..(LOSE WEIGHT!!!)
im so flabby la..
gaf penny her bdae pressie..
a ring =) she was so happy =)
oh ya..penny is a pretty..intelligent..frenli..lawyer to b. =)

Mon
worked alone..
kinda rained..
james(frm sunset bay) came over to chat wif me..
offered me hot drink..
kind soul =)
meet mr hoe..he waited for lyk 1 hour?
he bought one bag of my 60cents choc..
heez =) im a happy fat pig =D
went for dinnerrrrr den headed for home..

*summary of wad i did*
im happy =)

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2005-09-22T00:51:00.000-07:00

was readin steph blog..
abt e guy hu died..
i wasnt workin..so..ya..i dunno much..
i'll probably cry lyk mad if im dere..
life?
hes freakin 18 yrs old? my age?
n he left juz lyk tt..
imagine his parents..his frens' reactions..
treasure yr loved ones.. =)
b4 itz too late..

slack n slack n slackkkk..
wif mr hoe..
*camp* at his hse e day b4..
he had to go for test early in e mornin..
so i slp till he comes back.. (hahaz)
eat..watch vcd..eat..watch vcd..
no wonder we put on so much weight la!
oh ya..went for a haircut too..
i lyk e hair stylist =)

goin to lala land..
nitez

=)

2005-09-18T00:39:00.000-07:00

yIpeeeee =)
din slp ytd..
but still v hyper nw..
silosoooo today =)
vivan came wif colleagues..
hahz..lucky you! coz dey r realli v frenli n nice =)
work wif my godkor n yeo wei..
=D~
caught an OCTOPUS..
haaz..in e end i let it goooo..
coz i had to go for some dinner thingy..
i love island life..

*happy belated bdae to julian..penny..n steph..*
sry i cldnt make it..
cant let my mum go for e dinner alone ritez =)

dinnerrrr at some temple..
n i saw matthew =)such coincidence..
im glad tt he was dere..
both of us cldnt stand e noise..
i wasnt interested in entertainin those aunties as well..

oh wells =)
hyper me gotto slp..
timsum buffet tml..(c y i put on so much weight rite?)

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2005-09-15T20:55:00.000-07:00

haaz..was chattin wif my god kor..
he n grayz..gotto b e most romantic guys i've met..
so f those roses..itz everywhere.. =D
dey do e sweetest things..realli =)

him.."wished u had a bf lyk me?"
me.."nahz"
him.."yr loss"
me.."hahaz..yours too =P"
hahaz..hw bhb can i getttt..
too bad mr hoe.. goods sold nt refundable..

tmlz my last paper..
for e past few ones..haiz.. =(
*i hope e 5 of us will still b in e same clss next sem though*
thanx everyone hu tagged =)
u guys rockz my world =D

realli lookin fwd to hols..
KTV!!!!!!!
n lotz n lotz of things to do =)
stayover at ah gong's hse..
sam =) (i miss u SO MUCH!)
my family.. =) more teochew porridgeeee
mr hoe =)
DANCE? =D

off to watch tvvvvv.. =)

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2005-09-14T00:01:00.000-07:00

hAppy bdae to Chloe =)
babeeeeeeeeee..I MISS U.. =)

2005-09-13T14:43:00.000-07:00

presentin..H.I.Crew =)

us again =)

muackz

heez.. =D

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2005-09-13T00:01:00.000-07:00

hAppy bDae to Miao =)

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2005-09-11T01:15:00.000-07:00

itz amazin hw grayson always makes me feel much better..
=)

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2005-09-01T22:01:00.000-07:00

Happy Teacher's Day!
to mdm low..to mich.. to damien..n jacky.. =)

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2005-08-31T21:17:00.000-07:00

today is e big day =)
for Hi-crew..=D
i kinda screwed up abit..but overall..i think performance was great.. =)
esp e comments we received..
hey..we've been trainin hard for 1 mth..(nt a long period of time)
but still..we had to cope wif other commitments..projects..sch..etc..

while dancing..all i tink of was jacky sayin "jiao bin"
hope they lyk e presents we gaf =)
too bad..adidas dun sell guyz underwear =P (hiak hiakz)
we gaf mdm low a jacket wif embroidery.."world greatest teacher"
i truly believe tt she deserves it!love her lotz!

e other grps were great too..
*photo whorin*!!
i love dance crea.. =)

mr hoe came dw early mornin to watch tt few mins performance..=P
he gaf me something today..was v v touched when i c it..
oh well..(im countin dw..26 days)=P

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2005-08-19T13:43:00.000-07:00

ohhh..
can use my lappy to blog nw =D
slackin in e library
=)

today is e 19th..
hMmm. =)

gt dance later =D
hIpHop! Im nt gd at it..
but im tryin.. =)

oh well..was browsin frenster
when i saw M's profile..
"life without u is lyk eatin fish n chips without tartar sauce"
HAHAZ..

i miss sam!
soooooooo much..
it feels weird..we haven seen each other for ages.. =(
life without u is lyk eatin nasi lemak without chilli(ohhhhhh)
enuff of crap..hope to cya soon girl =)

M asked me to join dem for a drink at mermaid bar..
but too bad..i gt work tml..

dunno wad to blog abt..
take care ppl.. =)

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2005-08-18T22:47:00.000-07:00

"you de ren shuo bu qing na li hao.. dan jiu shi shui dou ti dai bu liao"
was watchin jue dui superstar..
dey sang tis song.. lyk e lyrics..

im damn tired..
realli realli nid slpppppp..

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2005-08-18T14:21:00.000-07:00

went for lunch wif wu papa..wu mama..n kor =)
happi day =)
no stress..no worries..

hao is rite..
life is so unpredictable..
we dunno wadz gonna happen tml..
i asked abt my sixth uncle..
he went to e dentist to pluck out 9 tooth in a day..
(for treatment purpose)
i dunno y oso..
somehow..i felt a lil pain..
for my uncle..
bro continued e conversation..
askin..wad abt his police case?
mum said "mayb even b4 e police investigate e case..hes gone"
sad..but mayb tts life?

i was told tt he bought some insurance thingy..
e cheque was sent to him..
n his FUCKING wife.. asked "itz under yr name or mine ar?"
FUCK..yr husband, my UNCLE, is fuckin goin to die..
n all u r concerned abt..is e MONEY..
heartless..cruel..ARGHZ..
itz so ridiculous..
i nv knew tt such things exist?

oh..mayb..all e promises u've made..
e love u claimed to share..
jus fade off upon knowing my uncle is sick..
i look down on her..
oh..all above mentioned..r my two cents worth..
nt impt to her aniway..

=)

2005-08-16T21:09:00.000-07:00

woah..so long since i updated tis blog of mine..
aniway..
i saw him on sat..
was wonderin if i shld say hi..or juz walk awy..
saw his gf =) shes quite sweet..(itz a new girl again)
i wanted to tok to him..ask him hws life..n so on..
in e end..i chose to walk awy..or rather walk past him..
a lil upset..a lil disappointed..due to various reasons..
i tot abt e things i did/said.. e ppl i hurt..
e time i took to get over things..
gotto admit tt ah ma 's death makes me realised alot of things in life..
her departure woke me up..
deres more to life...den juz HIM..
i was foolish..stupid..ignorant..
wadever u call it..
haiz..life?
itz e past aniway..=D

i visit ah gong on sat..
play mahjong wif him..he was so excited abt e game..he prepared e tiles..e table..e chairs..
he was lyk tellin me if im free on sun..can go dw n play mahjong wif him..
i feel so so so bad..
im a lousy granddaughter..
i work..n work..my wkends awy..
din find time for him..haiz.. =(
there were too mani happi memories in tt house..
i wished i cld smile when i think of dem..
but they always make me tear..

kor went for an op today..
hospitalised..
i din visit him..
coz hes comin home tml =D
hope his hand gets better =)

i joined dance crea alumni =)
tryin out hiphop (something diff for me =D)
some things happen though..

e message i wan to convey.. =)
-i wished things were e same..
-believe me..coz i love u all alot =)
-esp girl..we share e same bdae..
-all of us share tis bond..tt no one can replace..
-i believe tt noone wans to spoil tis r/s..we r a family =)
-i read yr latest post..im glad..nt becoz of anithing..juz becoz frm all tis tt u've said..it shows tt we mean alot to each other..
-mayb wad happened was juz misunderstandings..rite?

=)

2005-07-31T22:55:00.000-07:00

back at home..
oh..onli 3 slides for presentation..wad u expect? =)
im dead beat..shall continue tml..

went to sam's chalet =)
worked on sat n sun (grr..nobody to replace me..everyonez busy..)
ARGHZ!..
chalets=photo-takings..gatherings(=D)bbq..cakes..tidbits..swim..slp(ok..tis is UNusual..but i ALWAYS slp alot)..drinks..
oh.. i think Neo's *tRainins* helps..
i happily told him tt i din get drunk e nite b4(i usually do..im a bad drinker..im still one..but better den b4..haaz)
he says "realli..we train after work la"
hahaz..tts NEO..but i lyk him.. =) i lyk his heck-care attitude..
everyday is tiger-time

i wished i can b lyk him?

much as we expected it..
we din wan it to happen..
6th uncle is diagnosed wif nose cancer.
on one hand..he mite get a lighter sentence..
on e other..he mite nt b able to pull thru?
y has it got to happen to my family AGAIN?
itz scary..to watch yr own family members suffer..
to watch dem one by one..being diagnosed wif illnesses..
im nt tt close to him..but i gotto admit tt i realli lyk him as my uncle..(though i HATE his wife..alot of things tt she has done tt makes everyone fed up wif her..but i shall nt go into details..too lazy..)

Life..

=)

2005-07-31T22:41:00.000-07:00

Don’t be fooled by me.
Don’t be fooled by the face I wear
For I wear a mask, a thousand masks,
Masks that I’m afraid to take off
And none of them is me.

Pretending is an art that’s second nature with me,
but don’t be fooled,

for God’s sake don’t be fooled.
I give you the impression that I’m secure,
that all is sunny and unruffled with me,
within as well as without,
that confidence is my name and coolness my game,
that the water’s calm and I'm in command
and that I need no one,
but don’t believe me.

My surface may be smooth but

my surface is my mask,
ever-varying and ever-concealing.
Beneath lies no complacence.
Beneath lies confusion, and fear, and aloneness.
But I hide this. I don’t want anybody to know it.
I panic at the thought of my weakness exposed.
That’s why I frantically create a mask to hide behind,
a nonchalant sophisticated facade,
to help me pretend,
to shield me from the glance that knows.

But such a glance is precisely my salvation,
my only hope, and I know it.
That is, if it is followed by acceptance,
If it is followed by love.
It's the only thing that can liberate me from myself
from my own self-built prison walls
from the barriers that I so painstakingly erect.
It's the only thing that will assure me
of what I can’t assure myself,
that I’m really worth something.
But I don’t tell you this. I don’t dare to.

So I play my game, my desperate, pretending game
With a façade of assurance without
And a trembling child within.
So begins the glittering but empty parade of Masks,
And my life becomes a front.
I tell you everything that's really nothing,
and nothing of what’s everything,

of what’s crying within me.
So when I’m going through my routine
do not be fooled by what I’m saying.
Please listen carefully and try to hear what I'm not saying,
what I’d like to be able to say,

what for survival I need to say,

but what I can't say.

I don't like hiding.

I don't like playing superficial phony games.

I want to stop playing them.

I want to be genuine and spontaneous and me
but you've got to help me.

You've got to hold out your hand

even when that's the last thing I seem to want.

Only you can wipe away from my eyes

the blank stare of the breathing dead.

Only you can call me into aliveness.

Each time you're kind, and gentle, and encouraging,

each time you try to understand because you really care,

my heart begins to grow wings --

very small wings,

but wings!

With your power to touch me into feeling

you can breathe life into me.

I want you to know that.

I want you to know how important you are to me,

how you can be a creator--an honest-to-God creator--

of the person that is me

if you choose to.

You alone can break down the wall behind which I tremble,

you alone can remove my mask,

you alone can release me from the shadow-world of panic,

from my lonely prison,

if you choose to.

Please choose to.

Do not pass me by.

It will not be easy for you.

A long conviction of worthlessness builds strong walls.

long..borin..n mayb meaningless to u..
i read tis frm someone's blog..

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2005-07-29T00:30:00.000-07:00

i slept till 1 plus todae?
coz i wasnt feelin well..
*headache* since ytd..

went to kallang to sign up for CPR course..
=)
goin to retake my BM =)
goin for bronze cross.. =)
i hope i'll pass..
goin for such certs nv cross my mind..
since neo wan to send us there =) no harm learnin new things..
i've learned alot frm beach patrol ppl..
still nt gd..but i'll continue learnin =)

went to yck swimmin complex juz nw..
to help vanessa wif her test..act as her student..
but actually no nid me de..
so i swam wif jia wei n weiyang.. =)
nw my eyes r red..due to e chlorine water..

tryin to do my project..
save meeeeeeeeeee
dunno wad to write for comments..

HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP...

god-knows-it

2005-07-26T23:01:00.000-07:00

it was a happi day..
all until..
god-knows-when..

haf u realize tt e SAME stuffs haf been happenin whenever i go to god-knows-where?
i think i deserve a lil more respect den tt..

nvm if everyone doesnt understand tis post..
god-knows

=)

2005-07-26T12:46:00.000-07:00

usin miao's lappie..
i came sch for NOTHIN..
supposed to haf a 9 am tutorial..
i reached at 9 40..
n since itz 9 40..i dun haf lecture notes..din do tutorial questions
miao n me decide tt we shld haf breakfast..
oh..n u noe wad? itz such a gd day todae..
no lessons..no projects..
i came sch for NOTHING.. but still feelin happi..
hahaz.. coz mum sent me to amk to take bus coz she din wan me to b late..
i love mornin rides.. =)

dunno if itz plain coincidence..or mayb all of us were tired frm doin projects..
stac..miao..renz..raazi..n i din turn up for FMS tutorial..
but for our FMS test results..
we WILL go for make-up lessons tml..at 9am..AGAIN..
hahaz..*somebody gif me mornin calls pls!!!!!*
im still HAPPI =D

2005-07-26T01:15:00.000-07:00

i went blog hoppin..
everyonez nt v happi recently..
but everyone SEEMS to b happi..
mayb we juz haf to look happi for e sake of lookin happi(nvm if u dun understand..im nt too sure wad im typin abt either)
juz finish common tests last wk..
n nw..muz submit our projects next wk..
WOAH..HOW NICE RITE?

*u r nt e ONLI one working..
so..it doesnt gif u e excuse to act tt way*
so mani things to &*^%&%$%# abt..when it comes to workin wif ppl..
i tink im DIFFICULT to get along wif..
so be it.

sometimes i think im happi =)
i've gt humti..my sunshine =P
i've gt a soulmate who always dere =)
i've gt a happi family =)
i've gt e tiger famili =P
i've gt a job..n MOST of my colleagues r awesome peeps..
nt to forget.. him =)
i hope i'll b contented wif wad i haf..

-sighz-

i shld realli apologize..
n thank him..i noe itz nt easy..
to tolerate my temper..
i get angry over e slightest things..
over a casual remark..
n blah blah(to b continued)
aniway..
lyk i've mentioned..
im DIFFCULT to get along wif..

been thinkin..
it wun hurt..
to try to b someone better?
to try to curb my foul temper?
(e list continuesss)

mayb slp more so tt i wun get irritated so easily(haha)
wun b *wei le you yong ren de an quan hao le*(nvm if u dun undertand)

so yaya..
*dreamlanddddd..*
nitez ppl..
=)

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2005-07-22T12:04:00.000-07:00

my lappie gaf me probs ytd..
nw..i cant realli remember wad i wanted to blog abt..
super pms.. gRrr..bth..

alritez..happi things 1st =)
went shoppin wif sam =)
spend quite a lot..
bought new bikini *gRinz*
finalli gt a chance to c bernard..
hes quite gd-lookin..
so babes..do drop by rasa to take a look ya =)

bad things nw..
my 6th uncle gt involved in a hit n run accident..
he wasnt feelin well..(n he refused to c a doc..im nt cursin him..but mayb itz cancer? or at least..deres a high possibility tt it is..)n he DIN noe tt he knocked someone dw..so he checked his car..den drove off..
few hours later..police went knockin on his door..

something abt my uncle..
all my 17 plus yrs..i've onli met him lyk 6 times? twice at wedding dinner..
once at my father's fren's hse..woah..he rather go to his fren's place..den to pay visit to his MOTHER..my GRANDMA..
he onli turn up at my house ONCE on chinese new year..n he n his fuckin wife ended up quarrelling..
i DREAD seeing HIS WIFE at wedding dinner..
when i had to address her..n she totalli ignore me (WTF)
TT FUCKIN BITCH..
i think my uncle is such a WIMP..he listens to tt fuckin wife of his.. hu refused to let him come to my place..to wisit his mother..

but at e end of e day..
hes still my uncle..
my dad's bro..
nobody wan such things to happen..
haiz..life..

gtg..
take care peeps..

=)

2005-07-19T11:40:00.000-07:00

im so addicted to my bloggie song =)
i listen to it everyday..
when will i ever get sickkk of it?
=P

gonna meet sam tml
*gRinz*

i haven start on ief..
n i freakin screwed up my fmgt..
no..im not goin to say "wad i've studied din come out for test"
itz one of e worst excuse..coz im SUPPOSED to STUDY ALL THE 6 CHAPTERS..
haaz..sorry my super broken english =P

went to bugis after my so-screwed-up test..
wif mr hoe..
wanted to buy a box..
to store those *memories*
those gifts tt someone gaf..

*As the future turns to past,
Each day becomes a year,
I watch our story stay behind,
And slowly disappear. *
tis describes all.. =)

(sometimes i wonder if he had chucked everything i gaf)
still..im gonna kip dem into a box..
gonna kip dem as long as i can =)
tts GIRLS? or izzit juz ME? =P

=)

2005-07-18T13:58:00.000-07:00

slackin ard..
dun realli noe wad to blog abt..
been havin nitemares..
mayb bcoz of e common testsss ba..
i shldnt b so stressed up..
but trust me..IEF IS E WORST SUB TO TAKE..
esp when u haf a lecturer lyk HER..&*^%^&%$#
n a tutor..hu noe nuts abt e test..
hes not to b blamed of course..
hes been patient n nice =)

tis is baddd badddd BADDDDDDDDD..
well..retest is on 2th aug..
im so prepared to fail for IEF..
=(

i DIN WORK on sunday!! =)
ohh..it means lesser pay..
but MORE SLP..
special thanx to binghui hu took over my shift.. =D

i went down sentosa in e afternoon..
to pass daven's certs to julian..
bought dinner for mr hoe..
den rot dere till 10 plus..=)

woah..i din mention in my previous post..
i lost my voice last wk..
cldnt tok..
n my clssmates kip makin fun..=P
but too bad..i CAN TOK NOW..=D
worked wif PL last sat.. he went to buy me drinks.. he says pink dolphin is gd.. i dun agree though..
oPps..
worked wif daven last sunday..
it was damn cold..was rainin damn heavily..
n he gt me a raincoat.. n hot drink..

not to forget..KOK CHIN..
one of e best guys i've ever met..
frm those conversations tt we had.. =)tts wad i perceived...
IRONMAN!!!..cool~ super duper fit..
too bad..hes attached..
if nt..i can do matchmakin ya.. =)
i lyk beach patrol ppl..
dey r nice ppl =)
beach patrol guys =)
*tHumbz Up*
im lyk doin sum kinda advertisment for dem.. =P

gonna meet sam on wed!!!!!!!!!!!
i cant waitt.. =)

itz such a long entry (or at least i think it is)
but is anione readin tis post aniway?
off for my test..
study harddddd ppl..
gdluckkkkkkkkkkkkkkk..
=)

=)

2005-07-14T21:48:00.000-07:00

hi all...
im back here bloggin =)
study wkz been lyk one wk holiday..
n if u c irinx2..dun b surprised..itz nt yr eyes..itz juz ME..
coz i've been eatin n eatin..n EATIN..
been tryin hard to study..but nthz gettin into my head..
HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!

life been quite gd..
mayb becoz i stop thinkin soo much..
or mayb itz him.. =)
so ya..for e 1st time..i post mr hoe's pic here..

mum was tellin me tt tmlz ah ma's bdae..
e lunar one i think..
i miss my ah ma..
though shes gone..memories of her remain..=D
i'll b happi.. juz e way she wan me to..
her *dong dong he* ah girl.. =)

bye peeps..
studyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy..
gdluck to everyone =)
study hard!

replies to tags

2005-07-05T22:40:00.000-07:00

replies to tags!=D

to anonymous- i will..=) tag wif yr name ya =)

sam - no idea..=D aniway..when we meetin again?im lookin forward to our
next shoppin trip!!

siti - i miss u to e bits!! when will we c each other?!! nv c u in sch!
=P

Jazmin - hi babe! =)take care too! drop by sentosa more often!!! hahaz..

Aishah - hey! haf fun too my scorpio sis! =)hope to c u often on bus 171.
go home together ya? =)

rachel - hi girl! v long nv hear frm u..hope ya fine =)i miss u guys too!
train hard!!! =D

Lipwee - hahaz..icic.. thanx! i nid luck badly! hahaz.. aniway..cya ard at np
pool(grrrrrr) lol~ take care!

appreciated all e hunks n babes hu tagged =) sorry for e super late reply..thanx for droppin by! =D

=)

2005-07-05T22:27:00.000-07:00

was browsin blogs..
dropped by her blog..
i miss e 4e4 babes..
i forgot whenz e last time i saw dem..
aniway.. my point is..i saw tis
"i was given lots of chances to ask him to stay..but i chose another path..he was given alot of chances to voice out hw he feel n tell me realli where i stand..but he didnt..life"
it reminds me of e past..e happy days.. my used-to-b perfect life
years ago..(we're nt tt old..but ya..itz years ago)

tf22 babes asked me todae..
whenz my happiest year..
it gotto b when im sec 3..
well.. ah ma was still ard den..
n all i nid to think abt was dance..
i'll drop by every wkend to tok to her..
no wkend jobs..
no projects..
n mayb..

but ppl cant live in e past..
i've learnt to accept things e way dey r(i suppose)
nth much..juz feel lyk bloggin abt it today..

projects..projects..n MORE PROJECTS..
tutorials..tests.. n EXAMS..
when wld all these end?

i joined np lifesaving..
for MY BM CERT..
dun wan to compete for dem(im lousy..dey wan me to compete bcoz dey nid ppl..n im nt realli into swimmin..i train.. becoz i HAF TO..nt becoz i WAN TO..one of my job requirements)
n trainings quite tough..
my whole body aching la!
i'll train..
to get MY BM CERT!!!!!
hahaz..

met up wif sam last sun
(i wonder when we gonna meet up again?)
haiz..hate our timetables..
hate projects..I HATE DEM ALL!

notice tt tis entry is quite messy?
too mani things to blog abt..

im goin back to help haagen =)
nt exactly HELP..
coz itz MY team afterall..
mich is busy..
so WE r goin back!
haagen makes me happi.. =)

=)

2005-06-26T23:26:00.000-07:00

sat-
worked..as usual..
peaceful day.. no rescues..
Renz came wif her frenss..=)
made my day
hahaz..
saw xuan..zq n eileen..
dey all..becumin more n more pretty =)
wanted to go to ah ma's hse to play mahjong wif ah gong..
buden kinda late le..
so nv go..
aniway i changed shift(next sat) wif my colleague..so tt i can go to my 2nd home..
i miss my ah gong.. my aunts..my cousins( thought dey kinda irks me at time..hahaz.. but still i love dem =D)
mr hoe came dw..
so we went for dinner..
chong pang nasi lemak.. =D

todae-
saw ben.. =) his hair catches attention..
i saw him frm far..
saw xiaxue(dun think itz her real name..e famous blogger)
shes quite pretty.. she stands out from e crowd wif her pink bikini..
saw maurice's fren.. we cant remember each other's name
so we were lyk.."eh.u maurice's fren?"
hahaz..
din go for dinner wif my colleagues..
coz dey all gt DATES..
sobz.. =P

*i tihnk itz more lyk u cant b bothered to do it..
fuck la..u r supposed to do yr job..

*pls do not msg me at lyk 2.30am..
u dun haf to wake up early..tts yr prob..

quite pissed..
i mean...c'mon la..
itz nt as if im nt doin my part..
so gif me a break pls..

=/

2005-06-22T17:00:00.000-07:00

=)
finalli can slack at home todae..
nt exactly slack..still haf lotsa projects to do..
skip lectures todae..=/
e earth kips spinnin..n i find myself unable to catch up wif e pace of others..
seems to haf endless things to do..
seems to be busy 7 days a wk..
whenz e last time i meet up wif sam?
i went for dance trainins?
i meet up wif dance crea peeps..wendy n yj?
i go to my ah ma hse early in e mornin n slack e wkends awy?
i went for a jog wif humti?
mayb bankin juz nt e course for me..

went for breakfast for daddy n mum..
den went to ntuc wif dem..
din wan to go actualli.. coz v slpy..
n todae is e onli day i can slp late..
wad to do? dey r my wu papa n wu mama..

she asked me nt to work..
i'll love to..
who wans to study n work 7 days a wk?
but i wan to b financialli independent..
i wan to pay my insurance fee on my own..
n most of all..i dun wan to b an additional burden to her..

so for now..
i wan to stay at home.. =)
cannot always go out..
muz save $$..

ytd:
went for buffet to celebrate renz bdae..
den we went to lucky plaza to play pool..
dey left..
n i went to look for daniel..(he works dere)
chatted abit..
tt pig.. bought a rolex watch..
say wan to buy car..say until now.. still kip on spendin money..
bth..
he startin e business in 3 yrs time (tts his plan)
i ask him to employ me den gif me gd pay..
so i dun nid to go under e sun animore..
hahaz..think too much le..

=)

2005-06-21T00:50:00.000-07:00

=)
Renz- hope ya enjoy yr bdae..hahaz..hope u lyk e present..n hope u gt e chance to wear it(eh..dun get me wrong ar..i mean occasion..hahaz)

Mr Hoe- hope u had an unforgetable bdae..even though things din went smoothly la..
but still happi bdae =)

ytd..went to linus hse to celebrate linus bdae (which is on 20th june too)
played a joke on him..lol!

herez wad happen on mr hoe's bdae..
No.1)wanted to buy a cheesecake n bring it to mr hoe's hse..
but too bad..becoz itz fathers' day.. cheesecakes were sold out..
left choc cakes(he dun realli lyk dem)..so forget it..
wanted to appear at 12 wif a cake..no cake..somemore he went to meet ah dar.. =)
still..i went to his place at ard 12..
gaf him his present..=)
No 2)din noe he prefers black wallet..i bought a brown one..
itz nt e end..
No 3)planned him a surprise dinner..
but he so clever.. he actualli knew it..
hahaz..i think i too ben le..
No4)wanted to meet dem 1st..den prepare n wait for him to *arrive*
but muz try to lure him awy frm dem instead..so..change of plans..
No 5)dey din haf time to buy nydc cheesecake..so dey bought ice cream cake instead..poor dem always eat e same ice cream cake..*next time muz buy diff le..if nt dey c e cake oso scared..=D
had steamboat dinner wif eugene..weijing..karen..grace n her bf..shanyuan..louis..
den went to e arcade.. too bad dey cldnt get e minnie mouse..nvm..try harder next time! =)
aniway..abit too naggy..
hope u've enjoyed yrself =)

gotto do my research..take care ppl!

=)

2005-06-20T01:01:00.000-07:00

happi bdae to mr hoe =)
happi bdae to sharon =)
happi bdae to jonathon =)
happi bdae to Linus.. =)

n of course..happi fathers day!
=)

=X

2005-06-17T00:28:00.000-07:00

went back to work today..
as usual..e ppl dere were nice.. =)
kinda miss e old times..
but too bad..things r nt e same animore..
chatted wif some of e colleagues..
=)
met some new lifeguards too..
n babes..go www n check dem out =)

wanted to eat at satay club..but my fav stall was closed..
so we went to white sands instead..
after eatin..we went to watch mr n mrs smith.. =)
quite a nice show..

to somebody..
im tired of wad u've been doin too..
juz bcoz i dun blog abt it..doesnt mean anithing..
juz dun wan things to get worst..
but u juz kip continuing.. nt tired ar?
pls get tis clear..
if dey can tok bad abt me..dey can tok bad abt u..
i heard things abt u too..
if u realli wan to believe those ppl hu tries to sow discord..
go ahead..

u r happilly attached..so wadz yr prob?
once u in e mood swing of yrs u come back n quarrel?
when u not happi u put my pic in yr blog so tt yr frens will pass their comments?
wad if i put YOUR pic in MY blog n let MY frens pass their comments?
kinda overdoin things rite?
tell me wad u wan exactly..
by doin all these makes u happi?
im nt tryin to pick a quarrel wif u..
i dun c a nid to quarrel wif u..
coz itz nv endin de..

*if e above sounds mean/sarcastic to u..
i think u misinterpret my msg..
juz think abt it.. no offence..
n ppl.. dun bother taggin me if u haf anithing unpleasant to say..
=)

=(

2005-06-13T22:47:00.000-07:00

i used to envy my babe..
used to think tt she has found herself a gd bf..
tt dey were so sweet together..
perfect couple..
she went thru alot..n i tot tt she was lucky tis time..
it turns out tt tis relationship is even worst..
left her hurt..again..

i hope she'll b happi again..
itz easy to say..but hard to do..
still..life goes on..
haiz..

i wonder...?

=)

2005-06-13T10:20:00.000-07:00

im backkkkk
changed a new keyboard for my laptop=)
hahaz..

in clss now..
financial management tutorial..
sooo tired..

btw..
*happi belated bdae* to cheeboon..
my colleague frm www..
some of dem came over to sentosa ytd =)
joined dem after work..
v windy..v cold.
juz lyk waitin for briefin after work at www (=P)
oh ya..will probably b workin dere on wed
wan to go back n join dem.. plus makan at satay club =)

went to pastamania for dinner =)
mr hoe came to join us =)
den we sit dere tok n tok n tokkkkkkk..
muz learn frm irvin..(hahaz)
enjoyed my dayyyy =)

ytd was a peaceful day at work..
spencer..grayson..kelvin..
dey did recues..
but sze zeng n me juz sit dere n joke..
hahaz..we play scissors paper stone..
hu lose muz do recue..
i lost! lucky nobody struggle at my point..
=P

gtg..
take care=)

=)

2005-06-02T22:53:00.000-07:00

im back homee
went shoppin wif fifi =)
nt realli in e mood for a shoppin spree
so i din buy anithing..
we took some neoprints =)

shoppp..
eattttt..
shoppppppppp..
eattttttttttttt..

b4 i forget..
i learnt hw to add lines usin microsoft word todae..
wad to do..
all i noe is SHOPPIN wad..
*&*^&%^^&

saw geraldine..
we talked abt hw much we disliked each other..
haaz..our childish moments..=X
she changed ALOT..
=)

met up wif xuan n vivian.. =)
e BABES!
all happily attached.. soooo sweet..

saw ed n andrea todae..
aw..itz a small world afterall..
saw saw dem at bugis..
den..i saw dem at orchard..

v tiredddddddd
off to lala land =)
nitez ppl..
sweet dreamz..

=(

2005-06-01T23:20:00.000-07:00

dunno wadz been happenin..
i noe im a lil temperamental sometimes
a lil more temperamental durin peak periods..
but itz a lil outta control?
i get angry over E SLIGHTEST THING!
WARNIN: for yr own safety..pls stand bhind e yellow line....
v lame.. &**^&%#$@$#

ytd..
todae..
fuck!
itz nt e project grp thingy tt upset me..
itz nt u..
itz JUZ ME!
so CRAZY..

i dun c anithing wrong wif doin projects wif others..
*of course i'll miss e babes...
we r clssmates afterall..
so wad am i angry abt?
ANS: ABT NTH
im juz angry..bcoz im ANGRY..
wtf?
damn attitude problem..

sorry babes.. esp stace n miao..
sorry mr hoe..
sorry to everyone i offended due to all my -outta e world- mood swings..
sorry.. i lost my temper..
sorry.. i dampened yr mood..
sorry..i juz cldnt think straight..
i'll try to control myselfffff!!

went out wif sam todae =)
thanx girl..u always make me feel better..
someone say we look alike..AGAIN.. lol~

fio called! shes back~
meetin her for lunch tml.. =)
i forgot whenz e last time we went out..
=X

gdnitez ppl..

=(

2005-05-30T18:11:00.000-07:00

RENZ! WHERE ARE YOU!!!!!
goin to gif reward to ppl hu find miss sharon =P
im crappin..

i've been thinkin..

thinkin..

thinkin....

conclusion: i tink i got a serious problem..
i haf a hard time communicatin wif SOME pplsssss..
*pls dun ASSUME tt im tokin abt u..n notice i put sssss
probably bcoz im nt puttin in enuff effort to communicate
hey.. but communication works both ways eh?
i wished we cld stay out of each other's life..
which is obviously impossible..
nono..nothin happened..
juz tt i feel lyk bloggin abt it TODAE..
mayb i think too much..
mayb we r juz too different..
thus explainin y we will NEVER click..

*above mentioned r junk..
so dun ask me wad happened..

SI MAURICE..u post my pic in yr blog n call me PIG!
n yr captions &**(^&%^&$^%#$@
=P still owe me PURE VANILLA ICE BLENDEd hor!
=)

projectssss..
sch..
tutorial questions..
tests..
exams..
LECTURERs..
work..

grrrrr!!!!

oh ya..n my wu mama thinks her wu girl girl still can grow taller..
hahaz..
she wear jeans tt i cant wear n call me FAT..
n when i try to lose weight..
she calls me shen jing bing(crazy)
dotz dotz dotz..

=)

2005-05-28T01:21:00.000-07:00

arghz!
i hate my lecturer la..!!
haiz..but still haf to attend lectures =(

nvm..forget it..

went to maurice's chalet juz nw..
happi belated bdae to mr maurice ang wee liang.. =)
n pls la..stop sayin "zhen de mah"
=P
itz been a long time since i saw daen..joe..n weiye..
too bad i din get a chance to c tok.. =X

happi bdae to wu korkor =)!!!!
but too bad..hez not at home..

aniway mr hoe..
u dun haf to sae sorry..
itz not yr fault =)
dun think so much le..

hmm..im tired..
off to lala land..
nitez ppl..

=)

2005-05-25T22:29:00.000-07:00

ytd -played mahjong wif mum (dad helped her..dey tag team)..kor n shuhua =)
hahaz..i win! though nv play cash..but still happi la..
coz 1st time *hu* one *da san yuan*
hahaz..=P
drank abit of ice wine =) i love ice wine =)
went to slp at around 2 plus..

as a result...

im super duper tired todae!!

bad bad start for e dae..
i woke up..it was rainin meow n woof..gd weather for slpin =(
grr..had to force myself to get up..
humti is afraid of thunder..so she followed me ard..
she ran out of e hse..n hid near e lift..
im late for sch she still chu pattern =(
shes my humti bb..wad to do?

waited v long for 852 to come..
im late on e 1st dae of sch!

i sent my laptop to mel..
n tt guy told me tt i haf to change my keyboard..which cost $200 plus..
if motherboard spoil..it will cost abt $1000 plus..
c wad i mean by BAD START for sch?

itz been soooooooo long since i stepped into a lecture threatre..
haaz..scan my own card..copy my own notes..
it jus feels diff.. =)

oh ya..
vanessa puts on braces..
stace gt a new hairstyle..
jeremiah change his specs..

too bad Renz nt ard..
=(

i tried hard to listen..
but itz obviously not workin..
i fell asleep..
blk 68..woah.. e seats r sooooo comfortable..=)

n one &^&%^% msged me todae..
JERK..
spoil my day..

i told u..itz a bad start..

went for student union meetin..
=)

n guess wad? kor came to fetch me home..
hahaz..
well well..
happi endin afterall =)

despite all tt happened today..
im still happy..
coz kor came to fetch me home..
*gRinz*

i finished some of my tutorial questions..*claps*
hahaz.. i forgot when is e last time i do e questions b4 attendin tutorials..
=P

no choice..
goin out tml =)
maurice's chalet on fri =)
work on sat..
work on sun..

STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!!!!!!!

=)

2005-05-24T15:33:00.000-07:00

boring dayyyy =)
had rotiboy for breakfast(kinda sick of it alreadi)
teochew porridge for lunch..
waitin for fishhead steamboat for dinner =)
im happi though =)..love spendin time wif my family..

went to seoul garden wif mr hoe ytd..
had our breakfast..lunch n dinner there.. =P
den went to buy some stationery..hahaz..
cant wait for sch to start!

*HAPPY BDAE TO YORICK!
he cant complain tt i bo sim.. =)

i hope life remains tis simple..
=)

=)

2005-05-21T23:45:00.000-07:00

worked at tanjong todae =)
love my colleagues..
im so gonna miss dem when sch starts..

ohya..for those hu haf been askin..
im e one in e magazine.. =)
for those hu dunno..
figure it out yrself =P

erm..my kor kor wans to slpppp..
so gdnitez ppl =)
sweetttttttttttttttttttttt dreamz

quite true..

2005-05-20T17:01:00.000-07:00

When you think of your past love, you may view it as a failure.
But when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher.
In the game of love, it doesn't really matter who won or who lost.
What is important is you know when to hold on and when to let go!
You know you really love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you're not part of it.

Everything happens for the best.If the person you love doesn't love you back,don't be afraid to love someone else again,for you'll never know unless you give it a try.

You'll never love a person you love unless you risk for love.
Love strives in hurting.If you don't get hurt, you don't learn how to love.

Love doesn't hurt all the time.Though the hurting is still there to test you, it is to help you grow.Don't find love, let love find you.
That's why it's called falling in lovebecause you don't force yourself to fall.You just fall.

Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress.
It is a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, discovering and growing.The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go.

We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves.
On falling out of love, take some time to heal and then get beckon the horse.But don't ever make the same mistake of riding the same one that threw you the first time.

To love is to risk rejection, to live is to risk dying, to hope is to risk failure.But risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is risk nothing!To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose true self;to love is to risk not to be loved in return.How to define love: fall but do not stumble, be constant but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, hurt but never keep the pain.

*There was a time in our lives when we became afraid to fall in love 'coz every time we do, we get hurt, and then I figured that's why it's called falling in love.

=)

2005-05-20T16:51:00.000-07:00

=)
im bloggin again..
grr..
sorry guys if i din reply u on msn.. something wrong wif my laptop..
=(

im in loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!
in love wif rotiboy..=)
e bread is damn gddddddddddddd..
fattenin though..

Renz..continue our savin plan k! =)
tiger famili..: schz startin soon..
gonna gossip again..!
i miss u all LOTZ!
time to UPDATE me ya!

finalli startin to learn hw to play pool
special thanx to joseph
hahaz..sam: lotz of secret trainins to come!

too mani things to blog abt..
=)
hope i'll get better results for next sem..
for ah ma..=) for myself..=)

=)

2005-05-05T00:25:00.000-07:00

shall blog abt e happi things first..
i saw rad..raine..jazmin..n jessie at sentosa todae..
=)
im glad dey came..
coz dey realli brighten up my day =)

bought 2 bottles of moisturiser from The Natural Source..
damnnnn ex..
but nvm..it makes me happi =)

my cousin is backkkkkkk
she bought lotz of stuff..
i chose a pair of earrings..
though i realli lyk e skirts!
she bought some S.H.E facial wash..
for those hu LOVE S.H.E.. contact me ya? =)

ok..e bad stuffs..
early in e mornin..i shouted at a few guys..
dey ought to noe tt if dey wan to die..dey shld GO SOMEWHERE ELSE..
one of e guys struggled when he tried to swim to e pontoon..
but he was saved by his frens..
so i ignored dem..

i think hes tryin v hard to die..
he tried to SWIM AGAIN!..
tis time..2 of e guys struggled..
GRRRRRRR..i ran dw wif e buoy..
lucky e rest of e grp noe hw to swim..
dey saved e 2 IDIOTS..
wa..bth.. i shouted across..
*excuse me..if u DUNNO hw to swim..PLEASE do NOT swim to e pontoon*
i supposed i wasnt tt rude? heez..i used *excuse me..n PLEASE..
when i actualli meant *fuck la..dun act clever can anot!

nvm..itz nt e end of story..
2 guys came to e tower n tok to me..n dey asked "so gt ppl drowned anot?"
as soon as i ans "quite often"
i saw william runnin towards e sea..
someone was strugglin!!!
hw sway can i gettttttttt?
almost my 3rd rescue of e week?

shld haf been more careful..
shld haf paid more attention..
shld not b sooo complacent (i tot dere was a lower possibility tt things happen during low tide..but still..i forgot tt itz juz a lower possibility..not totally impossible tt ppl struggle)
e boys cld haf died..
juz becoz i wasnt sharp enuff..
WAD WAS I THINKINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!

nvm..

=)

2005-05-01T23:39:00.000-07:00

i drank ytd..
as usual..i din drink alot..
but a lil was enuff to make me drunk..
i cried..i puked..i slept outside 7 eleven..
i wished im a better drinker..

10 more days..
n it marks e 6th month of ah ma's departure..
itz been 6 months..time flies..
haaz..sorry matthew..
i think he was super freaked out..
coz he told me tis mornin tt im e hardest girl to console..
e more he tries to console me..e more i cry..
but when i wake up.. im back to e same old irin..
movin on wif life.. =)

oh ya.. i did my virgin rescue todae..
haaz..
saved a 26 yr old guy..
bet he drank lotz of water though..
appreciate e fact tt william ran from his point to mine.. =)
thanx man!

had dinner wif mr hoe.. =)

off to lalaland =)

=)

2005-04-29T23:56:00.000-07:00

back frm shoppin~

went to heeren while waitin for sam..
wanted to buy a pierre cardin wallet..=)
but hmm..c hw first..
itz nt VERI nice..but itz sweet n simple =)
im still v much in love wif e LV wallet..(sObz)

we headed for lunch at jack's place..
dey gt tis student deal which is quite cheap..=)
wanted to go bugis after shoppin at far east..(but we ended up spendin e day dere)
haaz..but nvm..next time..=>

both of us chose tops from a particular shop..
but we ended up exchangin our tops after tryin dem.. heez..

grr..shld nv go in to THAT shop AGAIN..
lucky e skirt is quite cheap..
but still.. WADS THEIR PROBLEM?
ok ppl..i noe im gettin u guys confused..
ignore me..

shoppin makes my day..
n sam..is my all time fav =)
haaz..

went to crystal jade for dinner wif her parents..=)
e xiaolongbao is niceeeeeeeee
even e vinegar is nice too *bLeAh*

motherz day is comin =)
i hope im nt workin on tt day..
ppl..start thinkin abt wad to do/buy on tt day..
itz on the 8th of may =)

=)

2005-04-29T11:31:00.000-07:00

went for breakfast wif wu papa n wu mama..
=)

now im waitin to meet sam =)

was browsin thru some lyrics..
n i found tis..
*When troubles have found your heart
And worries weigh on your mind
And dark clouds hang over your soul
You're not alone
Like your shadow, i'll be there
And no matter when, baby
No matter where, darling

=)

2005-04-27T22:30:00.000-07:00

v long nv update tis blog of mine..
haaz..new blogskin =)

off day todae..
gt clss outin..but i didnt go..
kinda sick of tt place =P
plus i wan to b gd girl todae..
stay at home n pei my wu papa n wu mama
we went to bugis to pray..
den walk ard..
shopped at ntuc too... (hehe)

mum says "wu girl..u nearly lost yr mum last sat"
me "huh?"
she choked on her food tt day..
lucky kor was ard..
it sets me thinkin..
wad if i happened to b e one dere?
i'l b so scared la..
i wished mum is healthy..

feel tt i've neglected dem..
i work n work..n work..
n after work..i go out..
when im home.. i chat on e fone..or go online..
i shld stay at home more.. go online less..
n pay more attention to dem..

=)

sad lyrics

2005-04-27T11:50:00.000-07:00

couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find a reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

=)

2005-04-13T23:00:00.000-07:00

back homeeeee
went to changi hospital wif ah gong n mum..
ah gong is strong n healthy..
n hes ready for his china trip =)

*sam..itz HOLIDAYS =)
i miss u soooooooo much! *wInkz*

=/

2005-04-08T21:33:00.000-07:00

few daes nv blog..
lotz of things to sae..
but kinda forgot le..

somebody drowned ytd..
my colleague did cpr..
itz so damn scary..
e relatives ran over to my tower n told his mom abt e news..
she screamed n cried..
i understand hw it feels..
so unexpected..din even had time to react to it..

i hope tt e guy is alrite..
haiz..
life..

goin to accompany ah gong to hospital on wed..
hes goin for his op..
hope everything goes well..

=)

2005-04-04T18:20:00.000-07:00

ohhhhhhh
i forgot to tell everyone wad MR LYC did to me!
he msged me on 1st of april at 1 am..
i was half dead due to information overload..
was abt to enter dreamland when my fone rang..
he said somethin abt dyin n all..
stupid me was so worried la..
*mr Lyc..GRRRRR! u better b dead..if nt e next time i c u..i'll make sure u die ar!
heez..juz jkin la..

got lots of things tt i wan to do..
wanna go to e bridge..
west coast...
ktv wif tiger famili..
meetin up wif wendy n yj..
shoppin wif sam..
i miss dem all =)

went out wif kor n shu hua todae..
he tried teachin me pool?
haaz..
den we went to suki sushi for lunch..=)

okiez..nw mumz cookin dinner..
im damn full la..

mum is in a bad mood..
as bro said..itz bal c/d from ytd..
haaz..those hu do accounts shld noe.. =)

=)

2005-04-04T12:42:00.000-07:00

exams finalli over..

went to sentosa on fri..
drank wif my babe..n of course gaz n pl..
din drink a lot..
waitin for neo to come backkkkkk..
coz i promised i'll go drinkin wif him one dae..
haaz..i hate e fact tt im a bad drinker..
so im gonna train myself =)
but fri was baddddd..coz all of dem slept lyk pigsss..
i was e onli one awake =( (normalli i'll slp first)..
so i went for a stroll along e beach..

sat
itz ah gong's bdae..=)
i love my family..=)
dey r e sweetest ever..

after tt..went to Angel wif mr hoe..shanyuan..eugene n weijing..
i prefer r&b..
den we went to marina square..
play billiard..
but i too stoned le..coz din slp..

went to his place..den went to work in e mornin..
tireddd..

mum n dad quite pissed tt i din go hm for 2 nitez..
wadever...

waitin for sam to go shoppin! =)
*gdluck for yr exams ya!
cant wait to c u =)

=(

2005-03-31T20:09:00.000-08:00

had cip exam todae..
e PROBABILITY of passin cip is higher den MICROECONS..
but still..my grades gonna b damn LOUSY..

i woke up from e wrong side of e bed tis mornin..
probably bcoz i got so much to memorise..n so lil time..
mom tried tokin to me..
but i said "dun tok to me..later i forget everything"
y e hell did i say tt to my mum?
ok..blame it on EXAMS..

i binge when im upset/stressed..
n im so gonna lose weight after exams *&*^&%^$%

n everytime i try to close my eyes..
i remember e promise i've made..
i cant even cope wif studies nw..
hw am i ever gonna make it to local Uni?
i promised ah ma.. i HAF to do it..

so bye peeps..
im off to study nw..

goin to stay overnite at sentosa wif shiqin..gaz..n pl tml
gonna drinkkkkkkkkinnnn

on sun..itz ah gong's bdae..
we decided to celebrate his my aunt's hse instead of my uncle's hse..
coz ah ma spent her last bdae dere..
ah gong cries when he thinks/tok abt her..

lifez damn cruel..
sometimes..i realli wished tt ah ma cld take me wif her..
i miss her..

=)

2005-03-30T20:20:00.000-08:00

i've been actin weird..
i go online..but i get pissed when ppl msg me?
i get irritated by almost everything..
ok..blame it on exams..
information overload..

bro is backkkkk!
he bought some snacks hm..=)

daddy mum bro n me =)
we had at crystal jade..
i was supposed to study..but mum wanted to go n take a look at my workplace..
so..
we went to sentosa..
well..intro my colleagues to dem.. =)

den bro n i headed for a haircut..
n &^&%T&*Y*
wrong move..
shldnt haf acted on impulse..
i SWEAR i wun go back to tt salon..

okiez..
ignore me..

=)

2005-03-26T23:07:00.000-08:00

went out wif PL todae..
supposed to study..
but nahz..
we went suntec n jalan jalan..
*grayson owes me lunch =P
aniway..itz nice of him to send me hm coz itz kinda out of e way..
i wished i was wearin shorts instead of a skirt though..coz wearin skirts juz nt a gd idea when it comes to bikes..
oh ya..itz a small world..
he noes kor =)
dey were from e same sec sch

so something happened ytd..
first..i saw nicole(from my sec sch)
den i realised tt she noes meiying(from yck swim team)
dey noe hui fang (from my pri sch)
n dey r clssmates nw?
hahaz..small small world! =)

kor called me juz nw..=)

okiez..dun feel lyk bloggin animore..im v tired.. =/

*drink lotz of water kz..take care..

=(

2005-03-25T23:45:00.000-08:00

it pains me when mum cries..
guessed we all tried hard to joke todae..
still..
few of my aunts wept a lil..
went to meet my fifth aunt for breakfast..
i went to buy ah ma's fav food..
knelt in front of ah ma's grave..
n ah gong said "ni ah ma zhui xi huan de"(yr ah ma's fav)
nearly made me cry dere..
but no..i wan ah ma to c e *dong dong he* ah girl she wans to c..

i think e cab driver was kinda freaked out..
coz i once i sat dw..i cldnt stop cryin..
im ok..
juz tt i hate being reminded tt ah ma is gone..
crybaby me..

it sets me thinkin..
her love is one of e those which wun fade awy..
others can say tt dey love me..but one day..
things will change..
we once loved our ex-sss.. ritez?

=)

2005-03-25T00:53:00.000-08:00

feel kinda weird when i tell ppl im goin to bai ah ma tml..
i've tried sayin.."im goin to my ah gong hse" after she left us..
but no..im still goin to say "im goin to my ah ma hse"
shez irreplaceable..
i hope nobody cries tml..i'll try hard nt to..
becoz i hope she'll c us all happy.. =)

congrats to mr eugene on gettin his freedom back..=)
went out wif dem todae..
but need to go hm earlyyyyyyy..
coz i haf to wake up at 6 tml..

kor called me juz nwwwwww..=D
passed e fone to mum..
i asked "so hws kor"
mum :'aiya..dunno la.dun care him..u called him ar?"
me : "no"
haaz..dad n i winked at each other..
we almost burst out laffin =P
itz so obvious tt shes sooooo happi =)
n shes tryin to act lyk she doesnt care..hahz..she cant hide it from us..=P
im glad bro is fineeeee..

nitez all..
sweet dreamz =)

=)

2005-03-24T11:14:00.000-08:00

i woke up at 9 todae..
special THANX to SOMEONE..
quite pissed..
wadever..im nt goin to waste 5 cent on him aniway..=P

mum took leave..
we goin to bai ah ma tml..
haiz..

ok..wish me luck for OB exam.. =)
*i hope im nt e one huz gonna cook for 1 wk
=P

=)

2005-03-23T17:33:00.000-08:00

i saw tis story on..
well.. abijah's blog

There is this girl, she and her Ex-boyfriend went steady for 3 years....however one day he left her without saying anything....she was darn sad...so she wrote him a letter a day.....everyday without fail....

Then came along another guy who was true to her....treated her well, like a princess...dotes on her....and they went steady for 3 years too....then one day...he know that she still couldnt forget her ex-boyfriend after so long....he then said to her...he treated her so well...but why until now she still cant forget her ex-boyfriend....cuz he know that she still writes a letter to her ex-boyfriend everyday without fail....she then said to him.....he left me just like that....he didnt say anything...not even a goodbye....he didnt return me a mail too.....

This current boyfriend...decided to look for the ex-boyfriend...wanting to find out why he left suddenly.....he traced for a long time....finally he found him......it was his grave he found.....he had passed away 3 years ago.....he asked the gate keeper....wad had happen to this guy....how he died.....the guy told him....he died in a bike accident....was a fatal one....he protected his girlfriend from the accident...protected her all he could....he shielded her from the danger and caused himself death....and he realised all the mail the girlfriend send to....was to his grave.......

Then She had awoken from the dream....all these while....she couldnt accept the fact that the ex-boyfriend had already left her long ago....subconscious....she tot that he was still alive....but left her without a word.......She was touched by the current boyfriend action....he didnt mind that she still thinks of her ex-boyfriend...and went to look for him too......hmmm...isnt that touching action .... which guy would do that for the girlfriend....he said....if he was the ex-boyfriend....he would too...protect her till the end...will not let her get harmed by anything...he would too...risk his life to save the girl he love the most...

From that day....She truely accepted him and they lived happily......Just imagine wad Love Can really Do...In her life.....She has 2 guys who willing to risk and lay down their lives to protect her....a true love i call....

hmm..tis supposed to b a love story..or a joke?
dey lived HAPPILY?
erm..alritez..=)

i din expect him to msg me out of e blue n tell me stuffs liddat..
it may sounds harsh..
but no matter wad he says..
itz NONE of my business..

i ate so much todae..
juz to force myself to open my eyes to look at e notes..
none of e info gets into my head..
e food gt in my stomach though =P

=)

2005-03-21T14:56:00.000-08:00

oppss..
i woke 2 pigs up todae..
went to look for yc to take my stuff..
=) i walked dere..
headachessss again..due to e hot weather..

had laska for lunch..
=)
nt supposed to take spicy food..
but once in a while..shld b alrite..rite?
aniway..i gt guai guai de take medicine..
eeee.. e taste realli sux..
but still..
for my dream =) cheerobics =P

=)

2005-03-21T00:44:00.000-08:00

my hand is recoverin fast..=)

went back to www to work on sat..
dey were lyk askin me stuffs n all..
well..i can onli sae dey dunno e situation well..
haaz..ttz when OB(organisational behavior) comes in..
CLOSURE..it occurs when e perceiver attempts to fill in e gaps to incomplete stimuli.he does so by extrapolating information or projecting additional information to form a complete picture.thus he uses e partial information or picture available to him to deduce the whole..
wow..hahaz..i haven study yet la..still seems quite chim to me.. but itz pretty interestin though..=P

went to work todae..
=)
aniway..william kinda intro me a job(nt goin to go into details)=P
took e test todae..swim 200 run 200.. swim 50 tow 50.. dive..
ran abt 3 km wif bro jeremy..grayson n julian..
went suntannin wif matthew too..
chatted abt lotz of stuff.. n dey r realli nice.. my bros =)
had a slight headache juz nw..
probably becoz i was under e sun for quite some time..

i lyk e way grayson look at things..
e way he interprets life..
wadz life without downs?
deal wif it..move on..
u choose how u wanna lead ya life...
live it wif minimal regrets..
life is a train tt does nt stop..
all those ppl u met..will pass by u in no time..

itz true..19th of every month..
haaz..i still remember.. =)
itz a train stop of my life..rite?

gdnitez to all..
slp earlyyyyyyy =)

=

2005-03-20T21:53:00.000-08:00

=)

2005-03-19T00:54:00.000-08:00

chattin wif 7 hunksss n babesss =)
includin sam.. grayson..n tianyin =)
haaz..
*tianyin..we gonna lose weight together=)
grayson is cool..my advisor..
haaz..=) someone whoz realli nice to tok to..
made me understand some things in life..

hugged humti n slept from 1 plus to around 5..
haaz..still haf to wake her wake..=P wad a pig..
went to sun plaza wif mum after dinner..
she says she dun wan to go out wif me animore..
coz she always haf to spend money..
i spent around 70 plus todae *bleah*

=)

=)

2005-03-17T23:33:00.000-08:00

back frm e 4 daes 2 nitez chalet..
love dem LOTZ..
damien's chalet..his bdae eh..shant disclose his AGE here =P
*happi belated bdae to damien!

day 1..
went to damien hse to meet dem..
yc n me went to hougang mall to "shop"
haaz..made him walked round n round wif me..to find my BOTTLE..=P
damien drove us back to e chalet..
(helped him buy his toto n 4d..)dunno whether gt strike anotttt...
bbq food for dem..haaz..e sotongs n prawns were too SPICY..
special thanx to yc's "add more add more"
hahaz..n yarla..blame it on my lousy cooking skills as well.. =(
i finalli gaf up..n leave dem to ka wai..
hes A GREAT COOK..=)
headed for 7 eleven.. for mochi ice cream =)
den we went to OCH..
nt tt scary though..
probably bcoz damien was beside me..
feel quite safe wif him around =)
aniway.we din realli explore e place..
some other day perhaps..
sabo some of e guys..coz dey slept early..
i brought red nail polish dere..

day 2
i went back to sch for OB tutorial..
everyonez slpin..or slackin around..
n im gotto go back to SCH..
=P
but itz alritez..juz 2 hours of lessons..
n of course..c e tiger family..
n listen to some storiessss(juz some updatesss.. heez)
went to meet mr hoe
n off we go..
back to e chalet..
we went to 7 eleven for mochi ice cream..AGAIN..
i slept lyk a pig (ok..i noe im one)

day 3
went back to sch AGAIN..
well..lesson starts at 1..
i woke up at 12 45..
i was late for 1 n half hour..
n e worst thing was.. e lecturer didnt mark attendence!
grrrr..
okiez...
we went to watch "robots"
den go back to e chalet..
dey were playin murderer-truth or dare..
too RA..=P
not my fault la..=)
well well..poor yc n kawai..
we had a gd laff though =P

day 4
woke up at 6
went to work...
for e first time..i worked wif shiqin..
grayson played "fuck..marry..chuck" game wif shiqin n me..
dey were sayin i've becum fairer..
well..i think itz pretty gd news..
at least im nt chaota nw..
n ah ma always wanted me to b fairer..=)
was quite shocked juz nw.. coz my colleague said "missing boi in e water"
we were lyk WTH? haaz..took e mask n ran dere..
itz SCARY.. i realli dun wan to dive n seach for bodies!

met my juniors..
dey r cuteeeeee =)
rock e cheer world peeps =)
turnin 18..
but i feel as though im veri old..
mayb bcoz dey r lyk soooooooo young =)

dad is damn freakin angry..
he doesnt wan to tok to me..
im too tired to please him either..
so ya..wadever..

so both of us juz ignored each other
lyk father lyk daughter..
wad to do? =P

=)

i miss shoppin wif sam..
n e thing abt np n sp..
is tt derez always tis one week difference..
my exams ends on 1st april..
while hers ends one wk plus later..
*&U*&&Y*T^&%$E
nvm..
*i miss u loads!!!! =)

CHEEROBICS 2005 ignite e passion =)

2005-03-13T23:50:00.000-08:00

congrats to st.hildas pri..chongboon sec..n of course..magnum =)
e big winners of todaez event =)

nitez ppl =)

=)

2005-03-12T00:28:00.000-08:00

had bstats test todae..
since itz over..letz nt tok abt it..

buy 4d oso not so zhun..
we were at bishan..
n i said.."veri near to germaine hse"
den i heard.."IRIn!!"
haaz..itz germaine n gf=)
miss dem lotz.. =)

girl din turn up for test todae..
hope shes alritez..

haiz..quite tired..

read my fren's blog..
n shes sooooooo in love =)
but ive seen too much wayangs lately..
lotsa breakups.. lotsa heartbreaks.. lotsa tears.. lotsa broken promises..
someone..gif me e definition of love?

=)

2005-03-10T00:21:00.000-08:00

went to alexandra hospital todae..
put on a wrist splint..
quite inconvenient..
actualli..i THINK itz nt TT serious..
hope e 2nd doc is juz exaggeratin..when she saes my wrist mite take one YEAR to heal..
im NOT goin to rest for one YEAR..

e first doc
he was lyk "so wad happened?"
me.."cheerleadin trainin"
doc:"huh?"
me:"cheerleadin"
doc"ok"
after a while..
doc "so..wad happened"
he juz dunno wadz cheerleadin..

itz my passion..my love..my dream..
im nt goin to gif it up..
he said e same thing lyk every other doc..
"rest for a mth n we'll c hw"
i've been restin for MONTHS..
n if rest is wad i wan..i WUN go n c him..
FUCK la..itz damn frustratin..
n lyk every other doc..he prescibed painkillers..
i can sell him MINE..
if painkillers help.. i wun haf to go to hospital..
i can jolly well go to a polyclinic..
i juz feel so sick of waitin..
but itz nt his fault..itz his JOB..
i shld understand..

i wish bro is at home..he nv fails to make me feel better..
he dun haf to tok..i juz feel safe wif him ard..
itz weird..coz we hardly tok much..
but..i miss wu kor kor =(

ocom is stressin me up..
but deres more to life.."from grayson's sch of tots" heez
so..enuff of bad stuff..
caught hitch ytd..
pretty gd show =)

met mr hoe juz nw..
went to amk walk walk..
ate rotiboy..
haaz.interested?
go to www.rotiboy.com

well..dun feel lyk updatin animore..
nitez ppl..

=)

2005-03-08T00:51:00.000-08:00

babezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
happi san ba fu nu jie..
haaz.. =P
we got 4 hours break later..can go makannnnnn
=)
Renz ar.. when we goin to shop for our 14th stuff?

oh ya..i spent 3.10 todae..
n i spent 80 plus tt dae..=(

13th marchhhhhhhhh
cheerobics!!! commin soon..
ppl hu r interested.. itz at suntec..
a dae when ppl cheer for cheerleaders!

goin for my check up on wed..
well.. dun wan to think abt it.=)

mum brought e wheelchair back hm..
i hope she gif it to someone hu needs it..
coz i dun wan to c it animore..
brought back lotsa sad memories...
i miss ah ma.. =(

=)

2005-03-07T00:23:00.000-08:00

firsttttttt...
happi belated bdae to weijing.. =)
*stay prettyyy n sweet =)

went to wrk todae..
heez..
i drove e buggyyyy!!!
of course.. special thanx to gaz..
for trustin me wif his life..
well..nt tt seriouz la..

alli went joggin wif dem..
can feel my legs achin..
n uncle anthony ate tt octopus tt he found..
arghhhhh.. i tot can kip it or something =(
one moment itz on my hand..
e next moment..itz in his STOMACH..
*&O*^&%T^

=)

=)

2005-03-03T15:40:00.000-08:00

woke up at 9 plus..
n all i did was..eat..n eAt n EAT!
well..ate alot..
im goin to die a big fat happi pig =P

a casual remark from me..
n off we go..
to sembawang shoppin centre.. for pineapple rice =P
all 4 of us were kinda drenched..
it was rainin cats n dogssssss..
haaz..im soooooo spoilt by wu papa..wu mama..n wu korkor.. =P

im stuffin myself lyk nobody business recently..
im eatin way too much..
n my diet nv starts!
haa..mich..u've been hearin tis frm me..for years le.. =P

bro taught me some self defence thingy..
we played along e way..
both tried to attack each other..
he always win *hUmp*
biggggg kids =P im so gonna miss him..
=(

goin for my test nw..
wish me luckkkkk..
=)

=)

2005-03-02T23:03:00.000-08:00

irin to sharon.. reportin daily spendins : "$2.00 todae"
haaz =)
n i was on time for clss..
earlier den e lecturer..

called mum at 3 plus..
told her im goin home..
i ended up at causeway pt wif sharon..
den..we headed for marsiling..
i reached home at 7.. =P

had dinner wif mum..
den we went to ntuc..
she was tellin me abt e 23 yr old grad hu threw her baby awy..
she said "when e time comes for u to let go..let go..
coz even without tt particular person.. u can still live on..
prove tt u will b better off without him..
n remember nv to depend on someone too much.."
shes been tellin me all these recently..n god noes y?
Quote: "If someone comes into your life and becomes a part of you but for some reasons he couldn't stay, don't cry too much... Just be glad that your paths crossed and somehow, he made you happy even for a while."

take my aunt for example..
mum told me abt uncle jimmy..
tt JERK..
she tried to make me understand hw much my aunt had to go thru..
e painful decision she made..
n e way she forced herself to forget..
goin into a relationship is a gamble..
n chances of losing..is so much higher..
time heals e wounds..
but wad abt e scars?

relationships r sweet at e beginning
dey call it e honeymoon period..
but wad happens when itz all over?
itz scary when u depend on someone too much..
when u begin to lose yr senses..
dey sae love is blind.. so nw..i noe y..
*Love has factually traumatised me

Finally found somebody
That could be the one
But I promised myself
That I wouldn't give in to love
And I'm scared
And I'm nervous
Don't wanna be hurt anymore
This is bad

One Last Cry
My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands
Standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone
Wishing all my feeling was gone
I gave my best to you
Nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

Chorus:
One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I've gotta put you out of my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I guess I'm down to my last cry

I was here, you were there
Guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me
Still I sit all alone
Wishing all my feeling was gone
Gotta get over you
Nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

i know I gotta be strong
Cause round me life goes on and on and on and on

I'm gonna dry my eyes
Right after I end my one last cry

=)

2005-03-01T23:15:00.000-08:00

shu hua bought dao hwayyyyy
hahaz..we so xin you ling xi..
=P
diet starts tmllll =PP

=)

2005-03-01T22:41:00.000-08:00

harloooo all..
harloooooooo
harlooooooooooooo
harloooooooooooooooooooooooo
okiez..i realli gt nth better to do la..
nt realli.
tons of hmwk.. n projects..
im too stoned to do dem..
n i cant slp!

lookin at e pics dey took at cheerobics..
i miss cheerleadin =( think it will take a long time b4 i can resume traininsss..
all e best ppl =)
super duper tirin trainins for tt 3 mins performance..
jia you!

bro is at home..
hes goin to taiwan on sat =(
hint him to get me something..
he always get gifts for me..
he will buy 2..n let me choose..
=)love him lottttzzzz
i nv tell him la..he wun read my blog either..=)

cant bear e tot of losin my loved ones again..
*treasure dem..b4 itz too late.. =)

=)

2005-03-01T14:26:00.000-08:00

heez..
was soooo yaya juz nw..
tot tt i cld attend lessons at 2 pm sharp..
i asked michelle "level wad?"
"level 5"
i din ask her which blk..coz i ASSUMED it was 72..
itz actualli blk 50..
so..i was late for lessons AGAIN..
oh ya..btw..im in clss nw =)

saw a few magnum peeps along e way..=)
gdluck guys.. =)

=)

2005-03-01T11:11:00.000-08:00

super boreddddd..
in cip clss nw..
as usual..i was late..
wadever.. everyone is presentin e same stuff..
n i dun even noe wad im supposed to tok abt..
my grp member didnt send me e presentation..
nvm..even if she sent me.. i wun b able to view e slides..
coz bro reformat my com AGAIN.. i dun haf microsoft officeeeeee.. =(

slept at around 4 ytd..
ZzzzZZzzz...
i miss my 99th crane =)

was at e lift when i saw terence..
haaz..we dunno each other's names..
i noe his chi name la.. noe him for lyk..14 yrs?( we exchanged no. after lyk 14 YEARS)=p dun xiang yy..coz hes one yr my junior =)
my neighbour =) kinda grew up together.. same kindergarden.. =p lyk my bro liddat..

was tellin william(bp) tt he can browse thru my frenster n c if hes interested in ani girls..
guys oso can..
i can try to matchmake..but i CHARGE fees de..=P
all i ask for is a treat..but i warned him wor..
i eat alot de..(oppssss)

theres something wrong wif my lappie again..
dotzzzzz.. hate it when it gifs me probs..
m hungry..
feel lyk eatin dao hway..

somethingz realli wrong wif me..
fell in love wif e $99 bikini i saw at sentosa..
shldnt spend soooo much...muz REN!(haaz..but i noe im gonna buy it pretty soon)
*can buy me advance bdae gift de lei.. i dun mind one..
can buy me mp3 player oso..hahaz.. =)
jkin la..
sharon...i overspent AGAIN..

still miss my 99th crane..
e BIG ONE =)

=)

2005-03-01T01:11:00.000-08:00

reached hm at 12..
went to tpy swimmin complex..
to watch water polo competition *hey..ed.. u guys were great =)hope u guys will win.. n nice trunks.. *winKz*

chatted wif sam..
as usual..we had cakes..chocs..n chessy stuff..
hw sinful~=P
we toked abt almost everything under e sun..
we finalli haf e chance to start on our "book"
*love u lots =)

some of my frens collected their results todae..
n mr LYC..kns..u BLUFF ME..
heng yr results gd ar..if nt muz waste money treat u eat..
heez..j/kin la..
happi for u too =)
*U BETTER NOE WAD TO DO AR *wInkz*
mich n i..waitinnnnnnnn.=P

=)

2005-02-27T23:44:00.000-08:00

quite a tirin dae..
but i supposed im happi?
pretty happi..
=)

=)

2005-02-27T00:15:00.000-08:00

tmlz goin to b a brand new start..
pretty scared..
e test.. e new peeps.. e environment..

mum n sixth aunt were unhappi..
u nv noe unless u try..
im aware of e dangers ard..
but im pretty stubborn..
n i hope all of dem will respect my decision..
=)

=)

2005-02-26T01:12:00.000-08:00

here to blogggggg again..
hi peeps..

sharon..i overspent again..
oppss..
im goin to take $3 n ezlink out n leave my wallet at home..
(nt veri possible eh?)

sorry for being late todae..
woke up late..
n some probs wif bus 851
e driver *zham brake..
n one lady *flew*
itz kinda exaggeratin to use e word "flew"..=P
as a result..but e bus stopped for quite some time..

read some of my frens' entries..
dey toked abt relationships..
mostly abt hw much it hurts..
quite sad..
it takes so much.. to love again..
*hope e next time i c u.. u'll b happi lyk u've always been.. itz nt easy.. but u'll get over it..let time slowli ease e pain..n hope u can find yr rite person at e rite time..at e rite place.. n noe tt i miss uuuuuuuuuuuu =)

punctuation marksss when u sms..r impt.. =P
"tml go sentosa.."= statement
"tml go sentosa?"=question..
heez..get e point? *wInkZ*

=)

2005-02-25T13:14:00.000-08:00

juz had my lunch..
=) love my dadddddddddd
*gRinz* he cooked my fav black beannnssss =)

had ocom tutorial juz nw..
all of us haf to present a 3 min speech..
n yu mei's topic..
"inter-race marriage" (something lyk tt)
u can imagine hw happy she was when she was presentin
e power of love =)

goin back to sch later..
for e micro retest.. =(

=)

2005-02-25T00:46:00.000-08:00

doin some research for tml's "speech"?
itz some ocom stuff..
n e topic im supposed to tok abt.. is "teenage pregnancy" or "teenage abortion"..
"Yes, the man is also responsible for the child, but since it is not his body the child is growing in, he does not feel the same connection to the child as the mother. "
true eh?
seriouzli..i haf no idea wad im supposed to do..
n some stupid porn website kip poppin out..
wadever.. =P
opppsss sharon..i spent lyk dunno hw much todae =P
n we bought tt top!
heez..wear it to sch one dae kz =)

=(

2005-02-23T23:20:00.000-08:00

damn moodyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
i miss damien..miss yc..miss mich..miss alicia..miss zhen..miss drey..miss rachel..miss wai sun..
i miss ALL OF DEM..
was supposed to meet dem to la kopi..
n..wad happened?
i haf to come hm to do the PRESENTATION slides..
or rather..e presentationSSSSSSSSSS SLIDESSSSSSSSSSS...
cip n ocom...
=(
goin crazy if all tis dun stop..
itz lyk..24 hours a dae nt enuff for me to complete my stuffs n everydae..things juz add on..
nvm..
im complainin abt my endless work..
i shldnt b here bloggin..
off i gooooooooooooooooo..
nitez ppl..sweet dreamzzzz

=)

2005-02-23T15:33:00.000-08:00

halfway thru my ob..
arghz..
he hates us..
we came late for lessons
we din do the hmwk..
we eat in clss..
we bloggggg..
we chit-chat
n when itz time for us to ans..
we gif him crappp..
i dun even noe wad i was saein..
mayb i do..but all tt i said wasnt related to ob..(as if i noe wadz ob all abt..)
ph ya..i do..itz ORGANIZATIONAL BEHAVIOUR..RITE?
e feelin is mutual..=)

sharonnnn girl=)
i spent $1.30 todae..
hahaz..was at atrium juz nw..
n i spot tis top which i lykkkkkk..
okiez..shall b more determined..
...(crap)
*sobz*

got back my results for my ob individual assignment..
wahhahaz..e 800 words thingy..
e dream career thing..
quite happi..heez..the teacher veri lenient..(hes nt tt BAD afterall la)
all of us gt around e same marks..
=P
miaoooo..can stop worryin le *winkz*

=)

2005-02-23T13:24:00.000-08:00

im in e libraryyyy..
so long since i stepped in..
n e last time i came..
was wif sum *&*(^&%.. =P
wadever..

i nid slpppppppppppppp..
goin for my ob clss..
goin to buy sum snacks in =P
i HATE LESSONS..

but still =)
bye ppl =)

oh ya..countin dw..
cheerobics finals on e 13th feb i think =)

=)

2005-02-22T02:51:00.000-08:00

still doin my project
gotto send it to my grp member by wed?
n i dun haf microsoft office.. hw m i supposed to do my presentation?(install it tml..n ya..gotto stay up late tml AGAIN)
quite sad eh?
well..guess all of us haf to stay up pretty late..
i realli look forward to holidaes...
gif me a breakkkk..
can hardly kip my eyes open..
im suchhhh a pigg..

sum better stuffs to bloggg abt..
went to town wif miao n sharon..
heez..wld b better if stacy was wif us..
tt makes e 4 of usssssss =)
i bought my gucci envy me..*wInkz*
still lyk kenzo though =P

=) irin is off to doooo her projects..

=)

2005-02-22T01:51:00.000-08:00

=)

2005-02-21T00:31:00.000-08:00

im homeeee
e dinner wasnt tt fantastic..
but still..
e videosss were great..
hw sweetttttttt..=)

i accidentalli locked humti outside e rm..
she went to wake mum up..
haaz..but i LOCKED e door..
so poor humti din slp ytd..
oppssss =(

as usual..bro cant kip his comments to himself..
he saes normalli ppl wear dresses to wedding dinner..
skirts r too informal for functions lyk tt..
well..nt as if i care..
im nt e one gettin married aniway..
he said tt i lack of commitment..
my CCAs stuff..
wadever..
i love him though..
coz hes super duper honest...=)
afterall..hes my kor.. *winkz*

super duper tiredddddddd
off to my dreamland..
nitez!!

=)

2005-02-20T17:17:00.000-08:00

im backkk
waitin for mum n dad..
goin to attend my biao ge's wedding dinner..
some of my frens were lyk "his weddin? den u ok anot?"
hahaz..
i've learnt hw to move on..
=)
so no worries ppl =)thanxxxxx
aniway..went to joe's hse ytd..
his bdae celebration =)
sorry tt i had to leave early..
but still.."happi bdae to joe =)"

=)

2005-02-16T22:14:00.000-08:00

supposed to study for ocom test tml..
but too mani things to memorise..i dun understand ANITHING..
so here i am..bloggin..

sorry stacyy..i din go for nra todae..
hope ya enjoyed trainins todae.. =)
i dun feel lyk goin animore..
i juz dun lyk e idea of.."no competitions/performances"
i noe trainins r impt so tt u can b a better dancer..
but itz juz soooooo meaningless..diff choreo almost every wk..
mayb dey will juz kick me out of e club..
wadever~
so mani ppl trainin in 1 rm..sumtimes cant even get to c yrself in e mirror
itz lyk wad E *&U*&%^$#?
nt saein anithing bad abt nra
der r good..(dey won funka afterall..)
erm..i dunno.. c 1stttt...
tok abt it next wk ba.. =)

all those tests lyk nv endin..
n those PROJECTS..
gif us a BREAK..
haa..i promised ah ma i will study hard n go U?

veri stressed up recently..
dunno y..

walked around at causeway pt..
wif sharon..
haaz..we gotto start our $2 plan tml eh..
hw to? we r goin shoppin on mon?=P
aniway.. Singapore is realli small =)
haaz..first is daven..now is dem..=P

gucci envy me!!!!!
im soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo gonna to buy it! =)
im such a spendthrift..
im SUPPOSED to SAVE.. =X

bought 4d for piggie..
n he saes is becoz i buy de..tts y nv strike..^%^U*(&%^#@
jkin la..=)
nt cursin u.. but start foldin cranes le kz..=P

=)

=)

2005-02-15T10:47:00.000-08:00

hi all..hope all of u enjoyed yr valentine's dae =)
i enjoyed mine..
love e roses..e pig.. e chocss..e balloon..
love e ppl hu spent e dae wif me..
my tiger famili..=) piggie.. =)
heez..thanx all =)
love u lots..
haaz..lucky stacy girl =)
n sharon becums our 2005 valentine joke =)
dun tell all of u wad happened =P
supposed to meet daniel for supper..
he finished at 11 plus..n im lyk quite tired..
some dae tis wk mayb?
watched constantine ytd..
ZzzzZzz =P
rane..nice ring =) n y ya nt here for cipppppp..i miss u! =) dun get too affected by those KIDS..haaz..some ppl juz gt nth better to do.. =P
miao nt here too =(
ed pulled my skirt juz nw..haaz..i was lyk "hu e hell"
turned around n itz him..
din realli get to tok much.. coz we were late for lessons..
aniways..*gdluck for yr upcomin matches..muz win ar..
saw aishah juz nw.. =)din get to tok much coz we were late too..
bumped into janet =) glad tt tis babe is still veri much in love..
hw sweet =)

valentine daeeeeeeeeeeee=)

2005-02-14T00:01:00.000-08:00

hApPi valentine daeeeeee to all =)
erm..
kinda forget wad happened for e past few daes..
gettin old alreadi..

stayed at ah ma hse ytd..
quite sad..
coz my aunts tok abt ah ma again..
tok abt *if ah ma is around
n e jewellery she left for all of us
weakling me always cry when the topic is brought up..im still nt used to it..
in fact, most of us r nt used to e fact tt shes gone..
aint supposed to cry.. itz new yr..
a bad new yr =(
coz ah gong nt feelin well..
n he doesnt wan to c doc..
haiz..

hmwk..projects..e learnin..quiz..
goin to get those test results..nt veri interested in them..
im gonna celebrate if i PASS..
when is my next hols?

=)

2005-02-10T08:35:00.000-08:00

ytd first dae of cny n i fell sick..
until..i dun wan to go my ah ma hse bai nian..(in e end i went over la.. but i go dere n slp..itz my 2nd home aniway..=))
mum asked "mornin sickness?"
me: mayb lo
i tot mornin sickness= nt use to gettin up earli..as a result u feel sickkk
den mum saes "pregnant huh"
WTH?
mornin sickness= first symptoms tt u r pregnant..u wake up feelin nauseous..
crazy lo..okie la..probably bcoz i puked everything i eat..
i even told her MAYB LO!
i becum e joke of e dae *sObz*
to add on to it.. dad laffed at me..
he saes i eat too much on new yr eve..=P

ytd ah ma hse de 3 roomss..one for slpin..one for mahjong..n one for daidee..
n my dearest kor.. taught those small kids how to plae daidee..
dotz..jiao huai xiao hai zi..
den he brought dem out to play block catchin..
deres NO WAY u can catch him when u plae block catchin wif him..
bro has such GOOD patience wif KIDS(MONSTERS)
aniway..ah gong was e big winner..
he won abt 100 plus?
n my cousinssss.. r e proud sponsers of ah gong's winnins of 2005 =P

im nt sickkkk animore =)
goin to meet joe n gang later =)
n bbq at nite..=P

take care peeps..dun eat too muchhhh.. =P

=)

2005-02-09T00:01:00.000-08:00

reunion dinner kinda diff tis yr..
all of us kept quiet..
but hmm..nvm..

happi bdae to shuhua jie =) hope she stay prettyyyyyy =)

i noe tis sounds a lil crazy..
but i miss chinese dance..
haaz..=)
oh..mayb im juz in e new yr mood..

thanx dear hunks n babes for forwardin msgs..
but my hp cannot c chi wordssss...
sorryyyyyyyy.. but thanx aniway =)

=)

2005-02-08T12:30:00.000-08:00

*ilove u..
u love me..
we r one biggggggg famili..
wif a great big hug..
n a kiss frm me to u..
wun u tell me u love me tooooo =)

dey performed using tis song todaeeeee...(n of course..sum other songs too)
veri cute..haaz..veri lame oso =P
but still.. great job!!!!! =)
i love u guys LOTZZZZZZ
*hope crys faster learn..n b crea's 1st hairstylist..
jia you babe!

HAPPY NEW YR to everyone hus readin tis..
enjoy yr hols =)